take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, February 20, 2007
23:32

dear world,

guess it's been sometime since i chup this blog. prolly it's cuz of the kind of life i've been leading the past 2 mths... wake up, bathe, work, come home at 10, eat dipper, sleep. to add some life my hangout would be youtube. i've nth to blog abt days at JR... it's usually the same other than some unhappy politics around. strategies on when to quit... when to be nice... when to say what.... when to appear where.... i mean can u imagine... wanting to quit is also not easy.

why?

because firstly i wanted very much to quit, call it dignity or being sick of the job. i thought we shared the same goals, wanna quit tgt. but when the time came, you come tellin me it's safer to stay on that job since it's not easy to find a better job. and it seemed to me we were supposed to support each other... why did ur stand sway when u see benefits? i know i may gain a lil achievements if i stay on... but really we swore our passions tgt... swore to be stand with each other.

but the past times we were working i kinda felt betrayed. u told me u'd forever be true to your words to me and stand by me. but even thru simple things like communication i only saw you sucking up to the one you felt you could reap benefits from, completely thinking nothing of your close friends.. how two sided is that?

maybe it's just my prob of misunderstanding, but what happens if ur other close fren said the same thing about you?

oh wells. i guess this is when uncertainties happen. more stress. more unhappiness. but i hope once i successfully break free of this cycle, we would be true to each other again.

back to topic, after having no life for 2 mths, i''ll be having a 4 day break. woots. lemme just be a homemaker for a while.

p/s im announcing my craze for sudoku. i know im retardedly slow, but who cares? (:

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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