take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, September 30, 2005
22:29

kinda stayed in sch till around 9 today la.
mugged, slept, played, crapped.
tt's abt it actually.
but a very hilarious experience.
shan't elaborate abt tt.

anyways, i lost 1 kg!!
whee.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Wednesday, September 28, 2005
16:24

i'm sorry for flaring up tdy.
let's just say i felt like a total leech at that point of time.
that's all i felt. really.
if i din rmb wrongly, i was more angry at myself than at anyone else.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, September 27, 2005
13:00

ytd was a really f-ed up day.
the whole day was just mugging. from morning to midnight.
from chem... to phy... to math...
i just felt like i was in a world of my own... staring from lecture notes to doing maths... continuously.
alone.
i'm not joking by saying that i brought maths into the toilet...
wad was i doing man.
and at 12 midnight i realised that there are phys and econs timed prac tdy.
which i totally forgot abt.
i feel like cracking up.

so tdy was a pretty numb day.
i can't feel a thing.
and next i have to bury myself in that stupid f-ed up trigo practice.

i dun like it at all.
i want my soul back.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, September 23, 2005
18:10

laughed like a hyena

tdy's really fun la. first we had the magnets [i still wonder y they call themselves tt] from the UK to perform acapella at the audi. like oh gosh. for once there's really something nice to watch during MCV. hahas. cute pple. lol. and it was so funny, us all stalking them... but wasn't bothered to stalk them out of blk 10 la. suewen took a pic with them outside the audi! lol.

then tdy zb kinda intro-ed dee class that kuku np camp song... bumblebee! but the effect was great man. we sang it to patty!!

laughed like crazy la. esp patty's reaction. stupid la. why did i sit in front. he picked on me lor :( lol.

as bright as a lightbulb

hahas. mui would know wad i mean.

now as bored as a bear

sheesh. weekend again.
according to the agenda i'm supposed to study econs la.
but how would i ever get the motivation again?

anyways next week onwards sch will end at 1215! 3 cheers! less gp. woohoo.

p/s sorry hor adelle lee. for drawing tt pink smiley face to fill up the practically empty foolscap for econs timed prac.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, September 20, 2005
17:18

i really must say tt i learnt one precious lesson today:

frens are eyes that saw what no one else saw,
hearts that comfort you when no one else could,
and angels that u up when u are down,
even though u haven always been there for them.

was in for a really pleasant surprise when the few sn buds appeared at the ohana while i was mugging and gave me this finished winnie the pooh jigsaw puzzle.
it was soo... woah... what's the occasion...
was kinda shocked, yet so touched when i heard tt it's a "cheer up" gift for me.
sweet la (:
isn't it a wonder how frens actually notice when you are down?
even if u dun tell them, even though u thought everyone had forgotten abt you.
these wonderful souls appear, and calmed the storm in me. by a lot. seriously.
i guess it kinda brightened up my days of darkness and loneliness.
i really love ya :D!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Sunday, September 18, 2005
20:33

before i bottle up the junk in my mind and concentrate, just wanna write down sth that flew past my mind after the wedding lunch, after blog surfing, and after talkin to hil during tuition.

everyone wants perfect love, but how perfect will it be?
love carries hopes.
and when what you see isn't what you thought it would be...
it hurts.
so the moral of the story is: seems like there's no such thing.
so why not settle for an imperfect one?
it pricks, but it's a learning process.

status: what do they mean?
must there be a specific name for every stage in a relationship?
a status i guess, is generally used to give an answer when pple probe abt a relationship.
i mean, how can u define attached?
some can be super un-close but still be attached.
some pple can be frens until the day they get married. [true blue eg]

conflict: why do pple keep things to themselves?
why not they just speak up and tell that other half how they feel?
simply because they are too frightened.
frightened of conflicts.
frightened of being misunderstood.
frightened to lose things that they have.

communication, as i've learnt, is very important in any kind of relationships.
without it, people spend time trying to guess wad another person is thinking.
it's unhealthy u know.
so i guess, telling the truth is also really important.
that brings us back to the point on conflict;
are pple willing to open up?

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Saturday, September 17, 2005
15:07

'tis the wedding season...

gonna go for this weddiing tmr la... kinda excited but sad at the same time cuz shopping spree with hil cancelled!!
sheesh.

then october got another one. whee~ joyful season eh~

anyways, have anyone thought of wad to do after promos?

what-i-wanna-do-after-promos list:

1) food binge
2) then massive workout
3) chiong cinemas [hopefully still gt the red shoes]
4) make money! $$
5) chiong k-box!!
6) stay out of the house.
7) shop!
8) get a true blue hairdresser to cut my fringe.
9) play play play play play....
10) read A book. [let's see, when was the last time i read one?]
11) have a nice tri-bday parties reunion with our (nameless) clique.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, September 16, 2005
17:50

i just feel like crying la.
the week sucks.
sometimes things just dun go the way we expect and wish for it to be.
i just feel like telling someone la.
but...

anyways. interestingly, this song kept playing in my head:

感谢你用心爱我

昨天的我 泪流心中
茫茫人海中孤帆只身独漂流
千般温柔 没人能懂
渐渐我忘记幸福滋味是如何

你伸出手 挽留下我
点亮了去路让寂寞无处可躲
你伸出手 拥抱着我
爱让我灵魂的火找到了线索

若没尝过寂寞苦涩 如何体会生命创痛
仿佛风雨中的秋天无力摆动的失落
而你的手是如此有力量如此的温柔
改变我生命颜色

此刻的我 爱在怀中
不再回头梦想又萌芽在心中
此刻的我 不求太多
千言万语化成旋律悠悠的唱着这首歌
感谢你用心爱着我

it's old la, but after sin huey sang it at the grand finals. i just think it's really charming.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, September 09, 2005
12:50

5th day of hols... not sure whether it's sth to be happy/sad abt...

sad like-- gosh, the crazy 6.30am mornings... real sucky yea?
happy-- back to life again! but yea, like after arnd 3 wks it'll be promos~ :

so which one are you, i wonder?

(a) mug hard. just stay at home and mug everyday. revise la... finish tutorial la... blah blah...
(b) just finish tutorial, can liao. then can stay home and slp, eat, watch tv.
(c) finish tutorial lor, then rest of the hols just kp gg town play play play...
(d) revised for promos, din do tutorial... stay at home din go out oso....
(e) TRIED to study, TRIED to do tutorial... but end up staring at the wall in front of you, becuz all u see is ?????...
(f) heck care la, who needs to study anyways? town is better.
(g) din study for a good reason. "i went out to work," you say.
(h) hibernated for 7 days and u just woke up.
(i) went overseas, nanny nanny poo poo~

in any case... i guess i'm (b) la... i mean.... i just cldn't make myself revise la. totally sian... then since tutorials are managable, finish them up la [somemore dunno how to do, leave some blanks, cher wun scold la]... so during tutorials can slp zzZ.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Wednesday, September 07, 2005
15:08

yay! i did lotsa chem stuff tdy!
but my 1st order DE is still quite jialat...
how?

here's a song-

AJC idiot by blue and yellow day

Don't wanna be an AJC idiot.
Don't want a college under the new principal.
And can you hear the sound of hysteria?
The subliminal mind f*** AJC.

Welcome to a new kind of tension.
Teachers banning parties and fashion.
Everyday isn't meant to be a slack day.
Ponning dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
For that's enough to argue.

Well maybe I'm the faggot Ajcian.
I'm not a part of a redneck agenda.
"No eating pocky outside the 'cafeteria' "
"CWO for eating da pao at the same area ."

Welcome to a new kind of tension.
Teachers banning parties and fashion.
Everyday isn't meant to be a slack day.
Ponning dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
For that's enough to argue.

Don't wanna be an AJC idiot.
One college controlled by the council.
Student forums that lead to hysteria.
Turn-off tutors that destroy ur future.

Welcome to a new kind of tension.
Teachers banning parties and fashion.
Everyday isn't meant to be a slack day.
Ponning dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
For that's enough to argue.

anyways, here's new sickness i came up with: search-engine-phobia.
yes.
as the name suggests, it's the phobia of using search engines.
how so?
well... dun anyone out there feel so frustrated when u juat can't get the right info u want?
and u r lured to those goodness no knows wad unworkable webbie...
then u get so irritated u wanna hammer ur com...
and besides these... u have a research to complete!
sheesh.
the worst thing comes when certain webbie attacks ur com with spyware.
oh rot.

so if this sickness were to be made official, there shall be exemption from PW for the infected souls.
yes. like me.

okie. so it's officially the 3rd day of hols.
wad have i done so far?
rite. nth.
other than chem.
i planned to make it sth like last yr's pre-prelims chionging week.
but obviously there are tutorials to be completed lor.
and it gets me stuck there and if it's too difficult, i dun feel like carrying on.
yesh. ~welpx!

i wanna wanna wanna watch red eye!!! (:

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, September 06, 2005
14:03

went back to sch for chem tdy...
and our class kinda celebrated theng and diana's bday.
so funny la this "couple"... diana even baked D [heart] Y T cookies la... like woah... so real arh... really like a couple dating like tt... LOL. dunch theng feel loved??

yups. so for lunch, me zb roy suewen diana n chee went pizza hut... had this really big and literally cheesy feast lor... hahas.... 7.50 each. broke liao yea? :D but at least we had a good lunch.

so here i m. home again. now how m i gonna make myself mug?

agenda for the day:
FINISH first order DE tutorial

let's see.
i think there's so many things i wanna say la...
but i dunno how to put it in words lor.
i mean... i just feel like rattling out all my feelings. but, no way is it gonna be mentioned here man.

and i miss my bi-atch~

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Thursday, September 01, 2005
12:48

things i shall do tdy:

1)finish maths curve sketching 2 tutorial
2)find another EOM source [y do i always suck at pw?]
3)mug econs! [labour theory]
4)wash wai's bandana
5)read the newspapers

why the h*** did i wake up only at 12nn?

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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