take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, April 29, 2005
23:00

i feel like screaming at you in the face.
seriously.
and i just feel like smacking u hard too.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Wednesday, April 27, 2005
20:00

here's sth that i really really must blog abt...

tdy after phy chem lect, on the way back to the homeroom...
me and waii heard ms ong's voice from the pe dept window upstairs. calling us to stop, keep my pocky and come up to the office.
i was so damn shocked la k.
like nth wrong suddenly gt summoned to the office...
she wanted to scold us... i knew it.

and indeed, she started reprimanding us for eating outside the canteen.
look at this carefully : SHE SCOLDED US FOR EATING OUTSIDE THE CANTEEN.

oh my godddd...
i was so so stunned la...
for 4 yrs i haven gt caught for eating outside the canteen...
i mean... it's just eating what... as long as i dun litter...
in fact... even if i littered i wun get caught by councillors or sth...
but hey!! this is a JC!! AJC!!! please la... u think it's a pri sch arh...
and it's onli a simple innocent pocky break...
and i got lectured by her...

and i dunno what's her prob la...
she started saying pple are irresponsible...
leave their rubbish around... and she particularly pointed to this small empty green tea carton lying on the grand stand floor.
and asked us to pick it up.
wahh what? CWO?
it's so damn ridiculous la...
i know u wan pple to be responsible for their actions...
but seriously, this is a jc and why do u have to care about such stuff?
and asked us to CWO one litter.
everything is getting childish...
what the hell is wrong with aj's discipline board?
or is it just u?

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Monday, April 25, 2005
18:10

nice common test experiences. really.

first of all, after the chem test, i thought, how come there wasn't anything on atomic structure in structured qns? wahh i finish so early worr.
then came the horror when zibbie exclaimed "suann!! how come ur first pg is empty!!"
wow... congrats to me man, i actually totally missed the first pg la... and i heard that it was relatively easy.
great, 5 marks gone. out of 30 mks. which makes it 1/6 of the paper gone.
wahliew... heartache la, seriously.
for the first time in my life, i actually missed qns... without knowning.
usually if i missed it would be either i dunno how to do or i just stare at the qns and feel like fainting la.
wow. nice huh.

then physics.
stupid mcq qn 2, errors and uncertainties.
kena tricked by tt stupid qn la... i actually took nearly 10 mins calculating the steps one by one trying to find the ans... b4 realising that we din even have to calculate.
all u have to do is to spot the correct dec pl.
which could be done in actually... 10 secs?
oh f*ck.
and the structured qns? i almost left tt section blank la.
oh fine.
what a nice day.



p/s i'm so damn HIGH today la...
if u know me, u should know y... =]
omg, u just dunno how much happiness u can bring to my day lor.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Sunday, April 24, 2005
13:13

kinda happy to see tags coming in suddenly... mostly from the mafiamily...
cuz i really miss them loads :)
and yeah... i guess it's all right to write wad i think over here...
all i have to do is to kp it away from the person i've been tokin abt...

anywayx... tmr there's napfa, chem and phy test...
while revising my chem topics, i realised how much i haven studied...
it's so damn tiring to kp reading the notes for 2 hrs...
and besides, the notes are very superficial... they dun explain things that i dun really understand.
for eg, wad exactly is the order of reaction?
does 1 mean they react first, and 2 mean they react second???

and i haven revised phy...
to my horror as well, i just realised nj din teach thermodynamics...
and since i din go for make ups... i'm so gonna die.

i guess that's the meaning of practising what you preach.
i can't blame anyone!! arhh!!

help... this weekend is so boring...

BORING
--
though i can chat with you online continuously... with no end to the things we can talk abt...
i began wondering, is msn sth good or bad?
i used to think it's a great 'invention' cuz it makes it easier to tok to pple whom u din have the courage to talk to in real.
but m i gg to depend on msn to know you more?
i'm too dependent on msn... so much so that i begin to find it difficult to talk to u in real...
there seems to be nth to tok abt in real, but there could be lots of insights when we chat online.
wad's happening?
do i have to lame away to tok to you in real?
otherwise there seems to be nth else to tok abt alr...
if i were to lame away to get ur attention, it's not the real me, i'm telling you.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, April 22, 2005
21:50

this ps outing kinda ended leaving me and emx deep in thoughts..
thinking it thru all over again...

are we being too naive?
are we over hopeful abt certain things and end up feeling terribly upset cuz things end up getting super messy?
then there's the joy of seeing ur loved ones; followed by disappointment when u can't be with them.
and the pain of wondering whether he feels the same way as u do...
even close to tears when u realise that it might have been a one way thing...

haix.

i'm getting greedier... i guess...
2 days ago i could survive without seeing you for a whole week.
just ytd i realised that i miss u so much every minute... n i can't wait to find u again.
but i told myself i shouldn't do this... becuz it isn't beneficial to my studies... and oso it makes one despo and a stalker.
but wad to do... ur face appears whenever i close my eyes.
seeing u brightens my day.
but how... i think i'm damn weak...
whenever i see you, i will not be myself...
tense... awkward... and the things i say might turn out to be darn stupid.

-that's love for you.-

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Thursday, April 21, 2005
22:16

am i going to slack for the rest of my yr?
i just got no motivation to study la.

then tan sl toked to me, zib, waii...
reminded us that it's high time to settle down
jc's not 2 yrs to play with...
i'm suddenly really worried abt promos.
what if i get retained?
i mean if i'm gonna study in jc for 3 yrs i rather go poly what rite?

oh well.

just gt inspired by timberlake's blog la... sort of "self-reflection"-ish... :P

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Wednesday, April 20, 2005
17:58

realised tt i have been blogging a lot recently...
probably cuz my mind is wondering around alr...
lost, tired, and hopeful.

am i living to my own will?
am i putting up a front to fit into the surroundings?
am i really what i am?
i suddenly do not think so...
if i could, i wouldn't want to talk a lot...
if i could, i wouldn't want to make a fool out of myself.
if i could, i would rather daydream about you...
i'm getting tired of this... the whole thing abt trying to fit in.
and nobody is satisfied of what he or she has presently.
i might have found the grp of frens i have been looking for... but do ya really know me?
or are u my friends cuz of the cover i've put on?
if i present you my actual character will u still be my friends?
is this called insecurity?

i m happy, seriously, happy but it's getting too tiring to act all talkative and hentaish to continue.
if one day i were to remain quiet for the whole day, will u still talk to me?
when will you see the real me?

when i tell u abt my crush, will you keep that secret for me? will u share my happiness and pains?
or will you despise me for my hopes?
i'm so glad no one did YET.
but what if such a person appear one day?

i'm seriously happy to see you today...
it's like ages since i've seen u...
was kinda depressed for the past few days...
so imagine my joy upon seeing you.

but why do i sense some sadness in you...
u suddenly look totally different...
not the outside... but ur morale...
i just thought u looked pretty tired, and lost today as well...
that enthusiasm i once adored you for seems to be gone.
the glitter in ur eyes seemed to have faded away.
are u as lost as i m now?

i cried for you for the first time.
not becoz u broke my heart, but becoz u seemed so lifeless suddenly.
will u recover please?
my heart has never ached for anyone else b4.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, April 19, 2005
17:11

a typical hot afternoon...
went for KFC family feast with the hentai family... with the special guest BUsh... hahax...
funny lunch lor... i'm totally suffering from indigestion coz i laughed too much la...
and some pple still dunno what's the exothermic reaction thing abt yet~ hahax... taught by nj frens now finally letting aj frens see...
then went back to aj and slept for 2 hrs in nexus.
then came home.
stupid sia... :P

anyway, com damn lag...
dunno whether is it the virus i tio-ed from yuqin on msn... haix.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Monday, April 18, 2005
21:27

d u n-e v e r-s h o w-t t-p r o j e c t i l e-m o t i o n-v i d e o-c l i p-t o-z i b b i e- a g a i n.

haix... how come i din see you for the whole day... :(

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Sunday, April 17, 2005
11:32

went for vulcanus cum 32/05 dinner ytd at marina bay...
and i guess it was really fun...
though i shouldn't have worn my new slippers.
feet hurts badly... but not as bad as palms!
wad happened to my palms?
ans:too much bishi bashi...

yeah... nice steamboat...
but basically most cooking done by zibbie and elaine...
my main job was to crack the eggs only lah... hahax...

oh yeah... and there was free potong ice cream for everyone... cool huhh...

ok then went arcading... daytona... bishi bashi... jurassic park...
after tt me, zibbie, swee kiong, jia le piahed home...
cuz it's like alr... 11pm?
goodness the train and bus seemed to move terribly slowly.
but yeah, i din actually get a thrashing la... hahax...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, April 15, 2005
20:06

did i mention tt i ponned phy and gp tutorial on wed?
hahas, was resting in nexus with e hentai grp and we just decided that phy tutorial sucks like sh*t lah... somemore got test.
then gp we oso can't be bothered.
thurs we even walked into econs tutorial late.
and chua din even notice la!
haha... funny sia...
then the preaching came...
thurs during phy prac, tan came over and interrogated us one by one... ask us y we pon lesson.
but he damn crazy one la, tell me wad zibbie said, of course i would give a reason to complement her la...
so i said, "she sick la, i accompany her lor."
ok, then he diao me. hahax... but wth la, he oso not say damn intimidating...

then tdy again during phy tutorial, he started telling the whole class the consequences of ponning... blah blah... just to pinpoint us la actually.
then he said we 5 ponners must come see him after sch to do test.
but no matter what marks we get it's still a zero, by regulation.
so kl said, "yea, we just go there take out foolscap and scribble 'i dunno how to do :)' "
funny sia, but true la, zero alr care for wad.

unexpectedly, he actually gave us make up lesson...
and we were grumbling at first.
but seeing his dedication arh... i think i'm starting to feel a little guilty la...
maybe he's really concerned one...
hahas...
ok la.
i swear i will onli pon lectures next time. :)

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, April 12, 2005
20:56

finally entered point X...
that place quite cool de... sell things tt the canteen seriously lacks of... like my fav hi chew!! yayy...
then slacked in the homeroom after sch to watch zibbie practise ------------.

watched samara with jingjie, jian wei, swee kiong...
zibbie pungseh me!! ahh! become 3 guys=1 ger lor~
wah lau...
i thought will be damn paiseh onex but later ok la, still the usual laming and stuff lykdat.
then stupid ah leng and ah yang so kuku one la... trying to sabo swee kiong.
but hey i'm the victim la!
dun do tt again lor, or u guys will get coke on ur head instead next time :X
and seriously, i din expect some pple to not like horror movies. hehex. =P

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Monday, April 11, 2005
22:31

if it wasn't for you, i wouldn't have wanted to come to sch.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Sunday, April 10, 2005
17:46

chopped my hair off...
no la... chopped sounds really old fashioned.
ok la...
shortened my hair by 2 inches.
arghh, can't really tie alr.
and tmr got pe la.
butt pple hair very little, shouldn't be a prob huh.

haix, our dearest funky kinky hasan is leaving for ns...
i guess it's gonna be weird for everyone to see a guy with tt smiley face and a peace sign missing.
we'll really miss u ya?
for one i'm alr quite used to it anyway... being in aj...
hahas... so yah~ cheerios and make the best out of it! =]

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, April 08, 2005
22:04

ahahahass... i want 32/05's timetable!! so good la... they dismissed damn early... if i got their timetable i could have sneaked out longer!
so the pt is, i sneaked out tdy to cine to meet s11... i think only less than an hr... damn sadx.
sihui and i then started pouring secrets+scandals+gossips out again.. hehe... so fun... and i see sth in jl... haha!!
din tok much tothe rest... cuz i think they were busy in some kinda convo... and it's great to see the snrs again after their cts! all alive and kicking! hehe~
i oso heard that s11 getting quite dead... hopefully the 2nd intakes would find out how much s11 rocks!

aww... i suddenly hate weekends. can't see u for another 2 days. XP

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Wednesday, April 06, 2005
21:13

hehs.
start of the official timetable...
sianx... am i gg to this for the rest of the yr? sadx. i miss nj's frequent free periods.
and jas's logic was pretty rite... the more breaks u have, the more u wan to save ur meals for later breaks... so u dun eat much.
but if u are given fewer breaks, u will be worried tt ur later break might be taken away from you [aka lecturers, tutors gg overtime] and u will want to eat sth every break.
which burns a whole in my wallet.
doesn't burn away my fats though.

wore aj tie tdy, must admit tt it makes us less factory worker-ish...
but no one will wear it correctly anyways, so we just ended up looking like gangsters.
a bit hot oso... luckily first period is lecture sia.

after sch accompanied wai ling to her stajeworks venue...
then slacked outside.
went to nexus to sleep.[ of course din really slp la, was crapping with jas... onli zibbie could fall asleep. hehs]

then it was air rifle selections...
if i'm not wrong, i did better than in nj...
nj's was pistol la... but whatever it is, i just felt more satisfied with my target card tdy.
it's not great, but the "hit the wall percentage" decreased. that's y :P.
i still rmb nj's one was like... huh... where did 4 of my pallets go?
and this time totally stress-free.
that's the advantage of a non-appeal student... hahax.

yeah.. at 4 i actually sneaked to queensway with zibbie and jas...
4 is like quite late alr la... i really wanted to go home and slp.
but i think if we all pungseh zibbie a bit bad la hah...
i mean she alr quite sad we couldn't go earlier...

in the end she din find a suitable bag oso. sadx.
but we ate and drank many stuff... hahas... piggies at work again~
tmr's pe would be a gd way to get rid of those excess FATS.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Sunday, April 03, 2005
19:37

i miss two different types of people.


i miss u guys... i miss the jokes... i miss the hugs... i miss the funny racism... i miss the suannings... i miss the happenings around the sch... i miss the nice seniors... i miss the effective econs tutor... i miss the food... i miss KAP... i miss the bond.

then i miss you... it's a stupid thing to say... but i miss you. even when it's onli 12 hours b4 i can see you again... it's not even called love but i jus miss you. even when there's always someone... someone out to make me not miss you.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Saturday, April 02, 2005
20:29

went out with hil, chlo, serx, emx, and joyce...
watched them eat at pastamania...
then went back to j8 to watch the eye 10 cuz cine doesn't show that movie.

emx's and joyce's sis joined us for the eye 10...
and it totally sucked.
it's a total comedy lahx...
weird plot, weird ending.

waiting for monday to come, to wear the aj U...
i mean, i'm so sick of st nicks U liaox... :P

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, April 01, 2005
15:49

i . seriously . shouldn't . have . told . u . tt . i . intend . to . go . back.
my heart really ached with regret...
what's ur prob? why can't i go back to nj for the dance party?
why do u want to hate the sch? it's my sch, not yours.
those are my frens, not yours.
it's nothing and u just simply want to bear grudges.
i shouldn't have even asked u for permission in the first place.
i'm respecting you, and u are not returning me the respect.
y are other parents perfectly fine with their children's reunion?
ok fine, see all exnjcians in aj gg back, except me.
happy?
i will share my thoughts with u no more.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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